"Things Will Get Better"
  by: RoXXyCleo007

Summer just finished and I was back in school. I was always very close to everybody at my school, everybody in my class and other classes. Then one day during an assembly... The principle of our school was reading a prayer, and all of a sudden I felt dizzy, not understanding everything that she was saying (coming out as just BLAH) and I could hear myself making scary noises, and seeing everybody look at me (just barely though, because I was so dizzy). I had a grand mal seizure in front of our whole school!!! The next week I went back to school, and people treated me different. They didn't want to get close to me or touch me, probably because they didn't want to catch the disease. I tried to explain that you can't catch seizures, it's something your body develops, or you are born with it, but they didn't understand, it seemed like nobody did. I was not included. I was not invited over to anybody's house anymore.. I felt sad, and alone, and like nobody cared for me.

That one seizure in front of everybody, changed everything!! I don't get made fun of at all (thank god) but I just don't feel normal, like everybody else. I felt alone, and embarrassed because EVERYBODY knew!!! That was in junior high, I was a 'Sevie' (7th grader).

Now I am in High School, and I am very happy with myself. I don't feel different anymore (even though I do still have seizures). I am included, and people aren't scared to touch me, and my boyfriend (he's perfect!) isn't scared to hold my hand or kiss me.

Sometimes younger people with epilepsy don't understand that things get better! I didn't understand, I thought that my life couldn't get any worse.. but it got better! Until then, you have to know that your body is changing everyday, more and more, you are turning into a man/women, and you are probably going through a lot, with friends (cliques) and your prospective about everything. Just hold your head high, and believe that it will always get better!! Sunny (girl)